11/28

11/28/07 The weather turned cold today; it was cold, windy, and overcast. I wake up late, so I was almost late for the Chinese class. Fortunately, I got there on time. How lucky I was!! During the class, I looked out the window at the bad weather. It gave me headache. I felt uncomfortable, so I didn’t want go outside, I just wanted to stay in the dormitory where it is nice and warm. On rainy days, I sometimes feel like going to a coffee shop and staying there all day, drinking a cup of coffee and reading a magazine or a book. Sounds relaxing, doesn’t it? How can I have that kind of life? I imagine this every time it rains; I build castles in the air. Today, I called to my father, and we had a long talk. Suddenly, I realized that home is always my harbor of refuge where I can feel loved. I wanted to go home and ate my mother’s cook. I felt so homesick.

11/27

Recently, I haven’t known any reason; I felt the pressure became larger than before. I felt very upset, I studied hard and why my grade was not well, I …. I known I was graduated of business subject in the senior , not in English, so when I known I was entering in the DAFL, I had to spend more time than others and studied hard. But right now, I made a little progress, but it was not enough, I felt very tired. I still in the last in the class, I thougt I will be fail. Sometime I thought did I really love English, did I choose the correct major, and maybe it is not my place. I got a lot of frustrations. I really wanted to change, but how can I do? How?

＋ 2007 / 11 / 23 ＋

In the night, I went to organization of dormitory’s internet with my friend. We told a lot, we told about the history Second World War in china. I didn’t why we told about it. We told about how Japanese killed the Chinese people, they used very ruthless way to Chinese people. We just couldn’t believe how cruel it is. They didn’t give the prisoner a quire, they tyrannize the prisoner. Besides, they did with the woman was the same, cruel way. I was very angry about they violate the woman no matter how old they are. They did that again and again. Then the victim had to suffer this and Japanese haven’t apology in public. Specifically, Second World War took place by Japan, then, the America put two atomic bomb, and then, they felt they were the victim. I can’t recognize why, they must apology to us. When I watched the Second World War video or book, why human so cruel. Why did we have to attack each other?

Go Shopping

Go Shopping After the class, my roommate, Carolyn and I decided to go shopping. We rode the bike and went to the train station. There sold a lot of clothing and shoes, something else. To reach the train station and finding the sparking, we started to go shopping. We almost like widow shopping. First, we bought the French fries. We ate the fries and went shopping at the same time, I know it is not polite but it’s very convenient. We went around in a while, finally, I bought a jacket, the color is red, I never wore the red color before, I don’t know the jacket suit me. My roommate said that is great and not bad so I thought I had to change my style, it look not bad so I bought it. And then, I helped my roommate select a new clothes, we took thirty minutest on selecting her clothes, it was so difficult, fortunately, we found it, a nice T-shirt. At last, we spent four hours on shopping; we just bought a jacket and a sweater. I was very happy, hanging out with my roommate, next time; we could go out to play again.

Mid exam

Mid exam The exam was finished in the last week, suddenly I felt free. The exam I felt I didn’t do very well, I was afraid I’ll be failed. What can I do? I did the best on myself. = = Forget it! It was the past, it is the true, I can’t change it so lets it go. The next time, Final exam, I will do the best. I will work hard. I have to stop the playing feelings; I am studying in the college, not playing in the college. Just do yourself.

Work Hard!

I have been a college student for two months. And I'm still not used to studying in the university, sometime I didn't understand what are teacher talking, I can't get the point. Recently, I have getton the text in the class, then I got the bad score. I didn't know why, mybe I study in the wrong way or just didn't work hardly. I was little upset, why I so stupid, I can't study in good score. Then, I had a report about history, I also worked hardly, but the teacher still say my report was not good. God! Why I can't reach the teacher's standard! It's so setback. My pressure is much bigger, I can't breath. I wanted to do the best, but why I always loss. I really worked hard... ( >n<) Whatever, Just keep going!! I think keep working hard, I still have choice to sucee, if I won't do it, I still a losser.